Okay, it really is time to get serious about this. I have basked in the glow of motherhood and neglected myself for long enough. Summer will be here before I know it and I want to be able to get out and be as active as I normally would. Not to mention I need to be the best me I can be for my family. I need to be healthy in order to take care of them.
So this week I joined Weight Watchers Online and I’m learning the ropes. I’m making a commitment to a healthier me. I have officially started today and I’m ready for the change.
I’m going to try to post some of my favorite Weight Watchers friendly recipes with the points per serving as I learn more on this program.
I have a lot of goals this year and being heavy isn’t part of the plan. I do cut myself some slack though on the weight. Let me give you the whole story. I used to be very active, outside all the time, showing horses every weekend, at the lake any chance I could be, just going non stop. It was great! I had so much energy…the more I went the more I could go!
Then I was injured in 2009 right in the midst of horse show season. I twisted my knee (not on a horse or even around a horse) tearing my MCL & cartilage. I am a
bit VERY clumsy on two legs. I kept pushing and riding/training hard (like an idiot) and was in pain for close to 2 years before I met my chiropractor and got straightened out for the most part.
Needless to say, pain will make someone depressed and not being able to be as physically active as I had been allowed me to gain weight. It was really a rough time. I couldn’t do what I once did and it really hurt my confidence. As the weight came on it of course made everything feel even worse. It became a vicious cycle: pain, stress, food, no activity, depression, etc. This was probably one of the worst but in the long run beneficial times in my life. I reevaluated a lot and reorganized priorities and goals. I did a lot of soul searching during all of that (emotional & physical) pain. I had to find other outlets to channel my stress, pain and emotions. I slowly began to get better physically and emotionally. I found my “happy” again.
I think God gives us trials like that when we need to work on ourselves from the inside out. It’s His way of giving us a “thunk” on the head and saying “Slow down and realize what is important”. This is, at least, how it felt to me.
During all of this my husband and I decided to start thinking about a family. The timing seemed right. We were approaching 30 and it just seemed like a good age and good time in our life. Then before long I was pregnant and you don’t really lose weight while pregnant so here I am heavier but so much happier. My life is right where I want it and where it should be.
Now I just need to get back in shape and doing the things that I love. I need the outside to look and feel as happy as the inside.